Monday, April 23, 2012

Command from Hiding

It was years ago that the brain began to form.
At first everything shimmered lucidity that only
pressed upon the organ for a moment, then
withdrew, as it would later imagine
its first kiss to be, fluttering faster than
the brain could possibly retain in memory.
The pleasure lingered in the heat of a sucker
between teeth loosely connected by neurons.
It commanded fingers to guide Mario down the path.
It bade Donkey Kong leave to kill all else
that moved in the forest.
Jump <neuron command://press-the-'a'-button/end command>
Fire <neuron command://press-the-'x'-button/end command>
Slide <neuron command://in.combo/press-the-'y'-button,
trans/press-the-'x'-button, trans/press-the-'L'-button+'a'-button/end command>
Symmetry
Harmony
Then Mario died.  <neuron command://anger/activate-chem-interchange_heart-rate-increase/end command>
Then Donkey Kong took a stinger to the eye.
<neuron comma######ERROR#64758365//overload-frustrate-chem-inducement/
treatment-paddle-smash-on-floor/end command>
Symmetry gone.  The brain cast about the body as it would know
perfection
kept itself from smashing the paddle.

Then a new reaction occurred in the back
rear processors beyond the conscious systems.
<neuron command://initiate-puberty; all-clusters-associated-w/'sex'-activate/end command>
It dreamed of a kiss deep in the night,
didn't understand.  The nerves were discordant
the neurons were confused, consciousness subsided
into a trance while the neurons shifted
the brain screamed through space, the planet turned
and it wallowed confusedly in rushing passion, shames
without name or place, inexorable, implacable.
<neuron command://initiate-curiosity: release-chem/right-lobes-of-neurons & all-systems-
associated w/imagination-complex/end command>

The brain returned storm-tossed and weary
to slow just so in momentum, to a speed
not quite lower than before it all, and after
much thought/interchange of neurons was wasted
in pursuit of slowing: it never managed to stop.
Instead, the brain slipped forward, because
"the sky was hollow and the earth was round."
The brain had knowledge where it once had
a firm wall, a theater, commanding those
characters on the screen for hours on hours.
The brain couldn't see Mario in the bathroom
mirror, and Donkey Kong was a no show.
                        <Then what was the brain?>
                                                                  <What is it?>
<How did I become it?>                                                              <Can it be undone?>
                                         <How would 'undone' feel?>
                    <Big Bang, origin of the universe...>    <Stars, a point in the galaxy, large as a million earths...>          
<Nebulae>                <I wretch lay wrestling with (my God!) my God...>
             <The horses... graze grass under the passing comet...>    <...but only encompassing a space comparable to the Universe as a planet is comparable to a particle...>
                                          <Everything exploded out from one point>
<........singularity.........>                 <the knives in he, cringe>

                    <The realization is better than the anticipation...>
                                                        

                                   <Command: seek the whole way to your hole in the ground.>

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